and its so crazy how you walked into that room
just like every other day
....except this time, my heart skipped a beat.
and its actually tearing me up.
having these feelings for you.
but i cant get rid of them.
late at night
when all the world is sleeping
i stay up and think of you.
:)
TEEHEEEEEE
im sorry, i know im meant to be normal and pretend i dont like you and all that crap?
but
its like... SUPER HARD
hahah
i like you so much, im losing my mind (:
for someone who's supposed to be "just friends"
why do i always get butterflies in my stomach just thinking about you?
no matter how many times i remind myself that we cant be together.
i still wont let myself fall for anyone else.
why am i still waiting for you?
you already
basically said
no.
so, why?
we've known each other a year now
in person
friends :)
best friends forr
i dont even known anymore
a long time :)
how come i never noticed you before?
well.. you did have a boyfriend.
and, i had a girlfriend.
and
oh shit
i have secrets i havnt even told you about
i.was.a.bad.boyfriend.
and so, i've realised i shouldnt be apologizing for my feelings.
cos that would be like.. apologizing for the truth?
thats bad :)
i dont know if i like you or love you.
i dont know if i want you or need you.
all i know.
is that i love the feeling i get when im near you
when i broke up with T _ _ _ A
i thought.. i'd lose the ability
to
smile for no reason (:
i was right.
but you gave that back to me
thank you,
i wish, you'd realise just how amazing you are to me
and how amazing we could be
and
just
how amazing
yea :)
i wish the dream i had before prom
came true
it was the best
i wish, i was more than just a friend to you
i wish you'd fall for me too
i wish
for alot of things
IM A BEGGAR (:
hhahahhaa
i wonder what'll happen if you end up reading alllll of this
and all the other posts
:O
if it does anything,
i've never thought about you
in
'that' way before
this crush
or
falling in like
or love
i dunno
RUSH OF OMFG EMOTION I HAVE FOR YOU
is purely based
on how much i love being with you (:
you're fucking amazing
your smilee
your laugh
your eyes
your retardedness in your room (:
your fake crying cos your ex called you a bitch (:
your extreme addiction to sms'ing
your B in BFF (:
your 'AIYOO' in maths :)
your living close to me
your being a day older than me
hahah no wait, thats not something i should like
hahahah
i think i fell in love with our friendship
i had fun putting sparkly stuff on the christmas tree :)
anddd my mind was on overdrive, i completely forgot the speakers
ahahha fml.
it hurt to hear you talk about how much you liked him...
this is a MOTHERFUCKING LONG POST
TEEHEEE
we'll always be best friends.
and thats a promise.
and if something magical happened,
it'd just be even better :)
thats how i see whats going on.
you tried to see me more than a friend but you cant cos its weird, cos im your bff?
i know from experience,
that two best friends
getting together
actually IS
fucking amazing :)
if you're scared cos of what happened with her
then just know that
you're here
and she's there
and we'll have no reason
to ever
break up
unless you randomly decide to tell me you're a jew
NAZII REGIMEE
OVENS PREPARE
HAHAHAH
jk jk that was rude, i apologize worldwide to everyone.
i honestly dont know what im saying anymore,
its 3 in the morning
and im writing this
talking to myself
FOR EVERYONE TO SEE
why dont you give us a chance? and you'll see just how amayzing we could bee (:
i've said amazing so many times
you're amazing
hahaha
no really
you are
everything about you (:
and what you wrote on my status..
you deleted the ones i did
but why didnt i delete mine?
it took me awhile to realise
but after i did
i realised, it was cos its true (:
DELETING THE TRUTH IS BADD
muahahha
im not scared to tell you exactly how i feel
im just scared to see how you react
im not ready to be broken again :(
you can fix me :)
FIX MEE PLEASEEE
hehehhehe
ok i'll say it now
and i wont regret it
i love you
Labels: Amir Abdullah Sani